Looks like all the worrying and stressing over a refferal to the community mental health team was nothing. Turns out the referral went a single point of access who decided to send me to steps 2 change. A refferal I made myself back in October. Today was much better than yesterday, I wasn't so anxious … Continue reading Stress for no reason
I really don't know what's happened today. I feel so down and anxious and hopeless today. Nothing in particular has happened so I'm struggling to understand why I feel so down. Every morning I take my anti depressants the two little tiny tablets that are suppose to lift my mood. The two tiny little tablets … Continue reading Tears and Anxiety
To say I feel defeated would be a bit of an understatement. A month after my last gp visit I went back today for a review. I've been on sertraline for approx 2 weeks now, I don't think that they are fully into my system yet as I'm not yet feeling any effects from them. … Continue reading Defeated.
2018 pushed me and tested me to my limits. During the last 4 months of the year I'd felt at my very lowest. I came very very close to self harming, thankfully that urge passed once I had my tattoo done. That said I didn't feel any better just because the urge to self harm … Continue reading A year draws to a close
Yesterday morning I started taking meds. I started on 50 mg sertraline, maybe it's coincidental that I've also felt very emotional and even lower than I have the previous few days. It could be post Christmas come down, it could also could be boredom. I've had Christmas now I want things to go back to … Continue reading Meds
Admittedly I expected the worst today. Living in a household with one child confirmed on the autistic spectrum and the other one more than likely also on the spectrum means everyday is a challenge. Christmas can go one of 2 ways, start to finish it's calm, quiet and peaceful or it's stressful with meltdown after … Continue reading Peaceful and calm
As a kid Christmas was the most exciting day of the year. All the build up, all the traditions and seeing Santa and waiting for him to deliver our presents. All of my best memories from childhood come from Christmas. Waking up really really early to see if Santa had been. I remember that we … Continue reading Christmas